Sometimes it just hits you

As I was sorting through my junk emails, I came across one from Gerber that says "Your 11 month old..." and got slightly sad. It hit me that I would have a baby almost a year old by now! In August of last year, I had a miscarriage. I would have been due in January. While the loss still saddens me, I'm thankful for the small amount of time I was given to carry that child. EVERY child is a gift, and that one was no exception. I trust God's goodness and faithfulness, it was always in his hands. Today, I'll choose to be thankful for the gift of 15 weeks of pregnancy with that child. I'll be thankful for the 3 other children he has blessed me with, and any future children he may give to us. I'll be thankful for the ability to be at home, raising and teaching and loving on my kids. I'll be thankful for the ability to go to God in prayer, knowing he hears me and he cares for me. I'll be thankful for the reminder of how blessed I am, and the reminder that many moms around the world are hurting right now. Somewhere around the world right now, a mother has lost a child. If you're that mother, know that I've just said a prayer for you.