Update

Wow, I haven't blogged in a REALLY long time!! Real life is getting in the way of my blogging I suppose. I just wanted to write a little update, and I'm hoping to update more often soon!
I am now 32 weeks pregnant. I went to the doctor last week and I had lost 2 lbs. Josiah's heartbeat was 144 bpm, and he is head down. I'm really hoping that he will decide to come on his own, and that I can deliver naturally. I called multiple midwives in hopes of using one to up my chances of a vbac, but they seemed to fall through each time. Brian was also uncomfortable with the idea of a birth that wasn't in a hospital because of my previous complications. He is very supportive of whatever I decide to do, but I figured that being this far along and changing doctors may be stressful, and he is uncomfortable with it, and the fact that it hasn't worked out so far may be a sign that it isn't what is best for us. It makes me really sad to think I may never experience a natural delivery, but I know that a healthy baby is more important, and nothing is beyond God's control. So, that being said, if I don't go into labor by August 7th, I'll have a c-section scheduled for that day.
Onto other news, Kaylee is 5!! I'll update about her birthday soon. She is also going to be finishing her kindergarten curriculum tomorrow, Lord willing. That is one of the main reasons I have been so busy. Cracking down on schoolwork and working on her reading, plus all of the other duties that come along with being a wife and a mom just don't leave much time for blogging.
Yesterday we buried my Uncle, my Dad's youngest brother. He was only 37. It was a very hard funeral for many reasons. There were so many people there! It was amazing to see how many lives he had touched, and how many people loved him. My Mawmaw spoke at the funeral, and I am always amazed at just how beautiful that woman is. Truly beautiful, biblically beautiful. It is so humbling to see a woman of her faith stand up and acknowledge that it isn't her strength at all that keeps her going, but it is Christ's strength. What an amazing testimony. Funerals are hard because they are a reminder of a fate that we all face: death. We will all face death and judgement, the bible tells us this. (Hebrews 9:27) For a Christian, it should point you to Christ. It should remind you that although you have sinned, and deserve punishment, God has so graciously sent you a Savior, Jesus Christ. When you die, you don't have anything to worry about, because you are clothed in Christ' righteousness. This is grieving with hope, knowing that this world and everyone/everything in it is not the end, nor is it the best there is. The best is yet to come. I pray that some of those who aren't Christians that attended the funeral would turn to Christ as well, that hearts would be changed. I pray that God would use this time of mourning to bring people to repentance, and that they would put their faith in the only Son of God, Jesus Christ, who died to be a propitiation for the sins of all who believe. "For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." 2 Corinthians 5:21

I know this blog is super long and probably should be about 3 different blog posts, but I just didn't have time for that. Sorry- maybe I'll be more organized and less talkative next time. ;)